My lil' thoughts...

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Memo..

Right here .. at this very moment in my freaking chillin' room ..
I sense a presence of another being ..
For the past 1 hr during my gaming session, i didn't look anywhere except for my monitor..
I thought ..

"It" might just go away and leave me alone ..
I was wrong..

At first, I feel something below my computer desk ..
I know that its very very near my leg..
Very near...
My heartbeat accelerate when I felt it behind me..
*Deep Breath*

After an hour..
I stop..

and decided to look down..
Yes, I didn't see anything..
But I can feel it ..

I feel 3... i think more than 3 ..
mosquito bite..
Its damm itchy .. freaking hell..

and the worst is,
I didn't manage to see that thin hairy bastard with a pointed straw nose buzzing around..
GDI..
God Damm It...


MRT rides..
Most of my sillythoughts strike me during those rides..
I love to stand near the door..
because its very windy.. there's a tiny lil' gap at the door that have a mini air-con feature.. sometimes it can produce a warmy effect..
ok.. I am kidding..

I love how the picture outside move rapidly across me...
It's a very different feeling inside a car..
I am on a much higher ground.. trapped in a box that won't be stopped by traffics..
just rustling ..
Always, it reminds me of my past..
how the times flies..

5 years back..
What am I?
I was 19.. working in a humble lil' cafe at somerset..
I was useless..
I only recognise money and entertainments..
What I was thinking back then...
and
what I had become..

4 years back..
Something dramatic happened to me, so much so that for the rest of my life..
I will never ever forget...
It was a turning point ..
I was force to change..
I was tamed..
It enlighten me..

3 years ago..
My thoughts and vision starts to become clearer..
I understood myself a lil' better, and gain better control..

2 years ago...
I was in army...my mind was deteriorating...
I felt useless again...
I am begining to lose my grip in my lil' life..

1 year ago...
I start to read... I understood... I learned... I obey ...
I also found light from my supporting friends and family..
I love them..truly...

Now,
I kept my promise 4 years ago..
I forgot how to cry..
I forgot how to lose my temper...
I have never regret ever since...

I always say,
It's alright to make mistakes..
Afterall, who hasn't made a single mistake before?
But (there's Always a BUT yah?)
Never EVER make the same mistake Twice...
Always learn from the previous fault...

I always believe if the same mistake would to occur twice,
This cunning word called "Regret" would seize the opportunity to create havoc in ya lil' mind.. and GDI, its punishing...

Respect my poor english,
Good the night..

posted by: Dental Care @ 2:44 AM

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